I Don't Deserve This...... I Can't Even Walk!

Currently listening to "By Your Side"- Tenth Avenue North

Royalty. What words come to mind when you think of royalty? Castles...crowns...Respect....admiration....power.....honor.....leadership. These are some of the words that come to mind when I think of royalty. Royalty seems so unreachable. It seems so far off. It seems so unlike me. But why? I feel like I don't deserve that kind of stature. I have no reason being in such high places. I'm not good enough for royalty. This list comes from a longer list of events in my life that has caused me to believe this about myself. True or False.

In 2 Samuel 9, Mephibosheth probably felt the same way. (Side note: I wonder what kind of nicknames he had growing up? Meff, Me Me, Meffy, Meff Meff. Just curious) David was royalty. David stood in high places and did grand things. David had castles, crowns, respect, admiration and everything on that list. Mephibosheth was just an ordinary guy that was heir to a great friend of David's. David wanted to honor Jonathan by showing kindness to someone left in his family. He found Mephibosheth. A random nobody. "Who am I that you would pay attention to a stray dog like me?" He knew how much of a nobody he was. Humility? Probably. I really think he was just being himself. A random nobody. He was given all of his grandfather's property and asked to sit at the kings table at every meal. Dude was lame on both feet at that. I'm sure he was thinking "I don't deserve this. I can't even walk!" It didn't matter though. He didn't earn any of this stuff, like David did. David made Meffy an heir because of who he knew, his father Jonathan and his grandfather Saul; and heir to the throne before David and a very close friend to David. What a feeling! To know you're invited into royalty and you did NOTHING to deserve it.

I feel like that's what God offers me. US! That's what grace is. That's what becoming and earner to heir is all about. I know I think just like Mephibosheth, "I don't deserve this, I can't even walk!" In so many ways my walk with Jesus becomes so distorted with circumstances, decisions I make to avoid going straight to the heart issue, just plain Life. Makes me feel lame in both feet. This leaves me feeling undeserving. Like a nobody. Once Jesus died on the cross, my so called "truth" was shattered. I'm an heir and I didn't even have to do anything to deserve it. It's all because of who I know. The relationship I have with Jesus allows me to be a part of his kingdom and the things that co-exist within that. Castles. Crowns. Respect. Admiration. Love. Hope. Grace! What a feeling! To know that I'm invited into royalty and did NOTHING to deserve it. I'll take it! Thanks Meffy! (Apparently I like that one the best)